should i be worried?

I'm getting a little worried... In regards to PCL tears... mixed reviews.. . some say you can deal without it... but then these other articles scare me! "Unfortunately, in such cases (severe) there is no cure and running must cease permanently. If the instability is mild, running can continue but with the caveat that the instability will result in wear on the joint albeit more slowly and that this will frequently shorten a running career." praying that my case is not the above described!

and i don't know why i'm so self-conscious about this brace. i'm slowly getting over it, but yeah.. i've got issues... i wore it more or less the whole day today though!

Anyhow, so we got our job rotations and I'm pretty happy about my position. I will be working in Hartford (location doesn't seem so hot, but I guess at least I'm close to princessvince :)... hehe..), in the Strategy and Business Development group. The job itself seems pretty neat, so I guess that should stir some excitement...eventually... We don't rotate until mid-August, so still plenty of time to cause some trouble in Philly...

Going to visit the grandrents in DC this weekend.. taking my cuz out for a graduation dinner, bringing the grandrents back to our new pad... then good ole memorial day church picnics! Have a good one!

out for the season...

sucks.. no soccer for me for a long while.. i'm screwed.. i can't last more than a day without touching a ball.. or without running from place to place..

got my mri results today.. ruptured pcl.. i'm glad it's not the acl, although i'm not sure how i got to the pcl without getting the acl.. whatevers..anyways, bad side is that pcl's harder to reconstruct and not always successful.. good side is hopefully, or prayerfully i won't need to get surgery (of course that's also dependent on me wearing this dumb brace...and taking care of the knee.. which i am not quite fond of doing). yeah.. so my doc threw me in this huge, bulky, completely straight 180 degree brace for 4 weeks!! yeah.. i'm sure that's really going to happen... i mean, part of me says to wear it so that it can get better and so i can play sooner.. but most of me is saying, this sucks.. it's ugly, it's a pain, it's extremely inconvenient, it's hot.. and screw it.. we'll see what happens.. if you have any advice on how to get my pants over this thing, please tell me... i could do the skirt, but the brace is so long that half the brace would be hanging out... i be looking real stupid..

anyways, we find out our next rotations on friday... hartford, philly, or ft. wayne, usa here i come!

china fun, soccer bum...

China was mad fun... I so did not want to come back to the real world..

Anyhow, it was quite stressful until about day 3 of the trip. The Friday before i left, i was at work until 1am.. fun stuff.. then proceeded to my apt. to move more stuff out and pack up the rest... after I arrived in Beijing, I had to select my top 7 choices for my next job rotation, and type up all this crap about them... yeah.. forgot to take into account that accessing certain url's from China is often not as easy as it is here... hehe.. slight problem.. oh well, it all ended up alright. but China was awesome!!

1st stop: Beijing... it was nice to be back in the polluted, dusty and dirty capital of China. I went to practice with the university softball team that I was a member of... brought back nice memories. we had an alumni vs. students scrimmage.. and we won of course.. hehe.. I was a little worried that I'd forgotten how to play... after all, the last time I hit a ball or caught one was probably when I was playing for that team in China.. I guess I got lucky with a double.. pop fly the 2nd batting.. and of course the trip would not be complete without a biking down the streets of beijing, rubbing up against dirty xiali cars (which are not being manufactured anymore by the way... replaced by some anhui car which looks quite nice actually)... anyhow, grace, her bro, and i rode down to the temple of heaven...twas quite fun.

then off to shanghai, dropped my crap off at my bro.'s apt.. which is ridiculously nice... in american standards!! spoiled child... had ribsat tony roma's with my uncle on business from taiwan... then headed to the 15 hour train ride to Huangshan.. translated yellow mountains i guess.. it's the really pretty ones that you see in all the chinese paintings.. it's really, really nice there, but the hike up and down.. is ridiculously difficult. we were dead tired, sore for a good week after that.

then another 15 hour train ride back to shanghai.. spent some time there just hanging out.. getting to know the city.. met up with some old church friends.. lyndon, rossana, jeremy, hannah.. didn't see the baby though.. they seem to be having quite a time there.. chilling with the bigwigs and all.. fun stuff.
then, to hong kong. first time there for me. now that place is fun.. i only wish i could understand the language and speak it! it's a cool, fun city, with pretty mountains and surrounding waters nearby as well.. i had authentic dimsum, which to be honest was good, but not anything outstandingly better than what we can get in chinatown... walked around teh city a bit, had afternoon tea in some bay.. very nice btw., and went for a boat cruise... went wakeboarding, swam to shore, played some version of touch football on the beach... quite a nice time.. had some good bonding time with my bro's gf too.. that was good. one major annoyance.. everywhere i went, i was reminded of how much i look like my brother... argh...

anywyas, back to the real world i guess.. i got back last sunday, was back at work on monday morning. surprisingly and thankfully not too jetlagged... had my first full week of commuting last week.. not too bad i guess.. so far at least.

was a little stressed about these soccer tryouts held this past weekend cuz minus the hike up huangshan, all i did the past 2 weeks was eat and sleep... geez.. haven't had to tryout for soccer since who knows when...anyhow, so i go to the tryout... doing well... 30 minutes into the tryout, i go and slide-tackle this girl for the ball..., collide with the girl.. and somehow mess up my knee.. sucks.. anyways, i'm not sure what this means.. i wanted to play in this league so badly... but it's doubtful now.. i was going to go watch practice today, but ended up getting horribly lost... ended up near the shore somehow.. frustrated, found the turnpike and headed home. maybe it just wasn't meant to be.. maybe God doesn't want me to commit myself to this team this year.. i don't know.. whatever... learning to let go.. there are always other opportunities i guess.. and there's always next year..
gotta finish up some other work for our group project.. presenting some crap to each other tomorrow.. then we have our cocktail networking party and interviews tomorrow and friday for our next job rotation.. definitely quite ill-prepared.. oh well.. whatever.. not sure what to do with my life anyways.. would love to go back to chian.. or find a job that i woudl be able to travel to china frequently.. any connections anyone?