homesick?

at what age does homesickness become inappropriate? most people grow out of it like when.. 10.. max 18 when you hit freshman year? yeah... i guess i just have major issues.

so after a stressful last week in philly.. closing up projects.. or attempting to close up.. cleaning up my mess... i somehow packed up all of my stuff at home, and "penske"'ed it up with mom and dad to connecticut this weekend. freakin tiring carrying all them boxes and couches and mattresses... i have to say it was pretty lonely after my parents left. it's not like in college where you have roomates or where there are plenty of people all around you.. after helping me unpack a bit and assembling some furniture, they left,and there i was... no internet (still no internet.. i've been forcing panera down my throat every dinner cuz they have free wifi.. sad existence..:) )... 1 tv channel... lots of boxes... and an apartment.

yesterday, day 1, was pretty good... uneventful.. to no surprise, i had no computer or phone... i think i just have bad luck cuz that happened last year too.. today was a little rough. i don't know.. i really miss the people i was working with.. the assignments... the respect.. knowing what's going on and all... it's hard to start over again.. it's also really hard because there are 3 other pdp's in my group (most departments have 1 max). it's nice having peers around you, however, there's this underlying silent competitiveness.. which am not very comfortable being a part of. i love competition, but i don't like this style/method of competition.. whatever you want to call is.. starting over is rough... getting to know people isn't easy... working with peers a the same level is tough.. i feel like we're working on our pdp group projects again.

anyways, on a more positive note... frank's wedding was awesome.. lots of fun and fellowship. can't believe the boy's married.. craziness....

Completing Year 1 as an "Adult"

exactly one more week at my current position.. i'm going to miss the people i work with... oh well... hartford will be a new and hopefully exciting place to start over... start fresh.

last night i swung by the opening reception/dinner for the incoming class of pdp's. i can't believe it's been a year.. exactly one year tomorrow (8/4).. that i've been in the real adult working world. stinks.. getting old...

so my brother's girlfriend... oh.. i mean FIANCE! stayed over this weekend. they both start b-school tomorrow at Wharton. i leave philly and they hit philly.. we always seem to miss each other. anyways, i think... yeah, i'm not really on top of things... they got engaged sometime while she was working in hk and my bro was in shanghai.. i'm not really sure. anyways, i think i'm in denial. but anyhow, this weekend at church, the pastor walked by and said hello to me, so i intro'ed my bro.. and he intro'ed her as his fiance... then he intro'ed her the same way to tony.. very odd... i guess i'll get used to it. she's cool. it's kind of fun because now i have a partner in crime to gang up against him... i may always lose the arguments, but she always wins.. good person to be on side with. :)

so i'm not 100% sure i'll be able to ski this winter.. but i got this thing in the mail today.. the "all for one ski pass." basically it's a season pass to killington, mount snow, sugarloaf, sunday river, pico, and attitash.. starting at $349. that's not a bad deal considering lift tickets nowadays cost like 60 bucks a pop or so... i think the 349 one has some blackout dates.. mainly the holidays, but you can use the pass on weekends.. anyone interested? we need to purchase by 8/30. let me know.. boarding's less straining on the knee right?... so long as the falling is controlled.. hehe..

teaching...coaching...business???

it feels so good to be done with this group project.. we were offsite for our 3rd development session.. spent days and nights preparing for our final presentation to company executives... and now... all i can say is.. what a relief! so glad to be done. our presentation went pretty well.. pretty pleased with my opening piece too. got to utilize some of the skills learned in that public speaking course i took at columbia...

i hate events like these because it always motivates me and excites me about my job and the program i'm in. just last week i was so set on teaching, coaching.. working with kids.. and now.. back to my state of confusion... gotta get tight with big papa for some clarification. amazing how easily swayed i am...

so after my long week, i came home from work on friday and drove to new brunswick for the last day of victory soccer camp's inner city camp. great fun! the kids were awesome. i even played... very gingerly in an informal 4 v 4 match... but did play nonetheless with the kids and coaches. it felt so great to be jogging around.. tapping the ball around... best part though was the playing w/ kids part.

oh.. and after the kids were gone and all.. i was offered a hs coaching job. man.. i was like.. uh... wow.. umm... what the heck do i do now!!!

well, i have committed myself to hartford for the year.. learn and grow a bit there.. and then we'll see from there where God wants me to be... teaching.. coaching... back to business.. we'll see.. but as for now, hartford here i come.. the director who offered the job did say the permanent coaching position would probably still be open for another year... we'll see what happens.

time for bed.. night.