my grandparents just left... well, they're at the airport getting ready to go.. back to taiwan... possibly for good. i just spoke with both of them and i have to admit, i'm quite sad about it. i don't like to think about it, but it did cross my mind that today could have been the last time... anyways, prolly and hopefully not ...
they've been in the US, watching the family grow up forever... i don't know when exactly, but they've been living here since i was a baby. The only babysitter I ever had, that I can remember at least, was my grandpa. He walked my bro and I to school everyday when we lived in NY, made ramen noodles for lunch when I came home from 1/2 day kindergarten.... we used to ride the exercise bike together - i'm not sure how we managed to do that together - but anyways.. now that I think about it, that just might be where the inner drive and determination (for certain things at least) in me began to develop. he used to always say "jia you," which literally translates to "add oil" to keep us working hard and keeping the pedals moving...
i always had a special relationship with them, especially my grandpa... now with alzheimers, i'm still the only person, outside of grandma, that he has a clear recollection of. gramps and gramm had 4 boys, who decided to keep the family tradition up by having more boys.. then i was born and the world became a better place - just kidding. there is now another girl who came later, but she's in taiwan. so naturally, i was the spoiled one that emerged in the family.. the little princess who is and forever will be grandpa's little girl. if there's a problem - which more often then not there is, at least in gramps mind - if I were asked to be the mediator, gramps would listen to me and everything would be alright...(it may sound cool, but it's tough work... especially recently with alzheimers added unto his stubbornness... my poor grandma... all i can say is patience and love).
my grandma's also quite the woman... she is, what can i say.. the typical grandma... loving, always preps good food for us... i don't know how she does everything... she's been so depressed lately. i've had conversations with her sobbing and stressed with gramps attitude and going back to taiwan... crazy stuff...
so basically, the main reason they're heading to taiwan is for my grandma to have a knee replacement, but while they are there, they will be checking out some "facilities." grandpa's expecting to come back here, as this is where he calls home; but i think grandma realizes that that might not happen... she kind of feels like she's getting booted away from us. anyways... complicated stories... issues... of course i'd like them to come back here, but i think taiwan will be good for them. hopefully my grandma will be able to have more of her own life there, instead of constantly being a slave to grandpa... i guess we'll see what happens.
so i'm realizing that i mostly only write in my xanga when i'm sad or stressed about something... and i will work on providing some more postiive updates on what's been going on in my life. but for some reason, writing here, for example right now.... has made me feel better. kind of soothing and relieving to get all the tears into words.
promise.. the next entry i provide will be positive.. when i'm not sad.... cuz things have been busy, but relatively good. till next time....
they've been in the US, watching the family grow up forever... i don't know when exactly, but they've been living here since i was a baby. The only babysitter I ever had, that I can remember at least, was my grandpa. He walked my bro and I to school everyday when we lived in NY, made ramen noodles for lunch when I came home from 1/2 day kindergarten.... we used to ride the exercise bike together - i'm not sure how we managed to do that together - but anyways.. now that I think about it, that just might be where the inner drive and determination (for certain things at least) in me began to develop. he used to always say "jia you," which literally translates to "add oil" to keep us working hard and keeping the pedals moving...
i always had a special relationship with them, especially my grandpa... now with alzheimers, i'm still the only person, outside of grandma, that he has a clear recollection of. gramps and gramm had 4 boys, who decided to keep the family tradition up by having more boys.. then i was born and the world became a better place - just kidding. there is now another girl who came later, but she's in taiwan. so naturally, i was the spoiled one that emerged in the family.. the little princess who is and forever will be grandpa's little girl. if there's a problem - which more often then not there is, at least in gramps mind - if I were asked to be the mediator, gramps would listen to me and everything would be alright...(it may sound cool, but it's tough work... especially recently with alzheimers added unto his stubbornness... my poor grandma... all i can say is patience and love).
my grandma's also quite the woman... she is, what can i say.. the typical grandma... loving, always preps good food for us... i don't know how she does everything... she's been so depressed lately. i've had conversations with her sobbing and stressed with gramps attitude and going back to taiwan... crazy stuff...
so basically, the main reason they're heading to taiwan is for my grandma to have a knee replacement, but while they are there, they will be checking out some "facilities." grandpa's expecting to come back here, as this is where he calls home; but i think grandma realizes that that might not happen... she kind of feels like she's getting booted away from us. anyways... complicated stories... issues... of course i'd like them to come back here, but i think taiwan will be good for them. hopefully my grandma will be able to have more of her own life there, instead of constantly being a slave to grandpa... i guess we'll see what happens.
so i'm realizing that i mostly only write in my xanga when i'm sad or stressed about something... and i will work on providing some more postiive updates on what's been going on in my life. but for some reason, writing here, for example right now.... has made me feel better. kind of soothing and relieving to get all the tears into words.
promise.. the next entry i provide will be positive.. when i'm not sad.... cuz things have been busy, but relatively good. till next time....
