work-life balance?

Isabel... perhaps a state of emergency will be declared in pa, and i won't have to go to work!!! fat chance... i don't even hear the whistle of the wind or the pounding rain..

so work life... i guess you can never really win.. i got loaded with a lot of work today, so it's kinda stressful, but at the same time, lots of work forces you and challenges you to learn and get caught up on the things necessary for you to get the tasks that need to be done. if you're not challenged, then you're just sitting there bored, which really isn't much fun either. oh well... hehe...

almost the weekend! women's world cup kicking off this saturday at lincoln financial field! can't wait! my dad's taking me to the games.. anybody want tickets, i might be able to get a COUPLE... email me at tw195 asap.

bye! Jared, so when did you get this soccer kick? we never got to play this summer!!! next time...

transitioning to adulthood

Alright, so things have changed quite a bit since I last wrote. Well 1, I finally have a computer that has a working backspace and enter key. and fast internet... ahhh...

2, I've entered the real world.. the work world... very scary I admit it, I definitely belong in kindergarten, where teachers nurture, you get snack time, take naps, play... what else could you ask for?! (On a side note, the day before I started working, my dad looked at me straight in the face and said, "Now Tammy, it's okay to be a baby at home, but you can't be a baby at work, ok?" said that with a very straight face...:)) Actually, it's been what, a little over a month since I first started work, and I am just about ready to retire!

3. My house isn't my home anymore... My parents closed up our house, the house I grew up in since I was like 7 or 8. It was sooo sad. Oh well, it's not like they moved far, just to a different place.. not happy about that...I have so many memories of that place.. and, my doggie's ashes will remain there forever without me... :(

4. Not only did my parents move, I too have relocated to Philadelphia. It's okay I guess--a pretty cute city, but it just isn't good 'ole New York City... Man, things close so freakin early here, like earlier than things in the suburbs I grew up in... no joke..

So this summer was pretty good.. nice and relaxing. All I did was eat, sleep, and play soccer. I was playing in this awesome league on a horrible team.. well, we lost every game, some of them pretty badly, but it was cool to see our improvement (can't tell by the scores.. hehe)... what do you expect? our team was newly put together, whereas the other teams had been playing and practicing together for years... plus, they had like 2x the # of players we had, so by the 2nd half, we were just too tired, which then led to the unfortunate situation of tammy, being the goalie, getting screwed... oh well.. it was fun to travel in a tiny van every weekend. i even signed a few autographs (despite the fact that we lost a game 10-0.. that was a first for me)! then i started working at this christian soccer camp. now that was pretty cool.. i definitely wish i could do that full-time... this work thing... really gets in the way of my desired schedule..

Alright, so anyways, I guess work life is alright. Orientation was great fun. We were basically treated like kings and queens, did some team building stuff at a ropes course place, went to Eagles training camp, met the kicker... pretty fun time. To my dismay, real work at the office is not nearly as exciting. However, on a positive note, work is almost like college all over again, cuz there are a bunch of first and second year people in the program that I am in, so we basically go out, play, eat lunch, and work together... so that keeps things somewhat lively. I am learning a lot though, which is good I suppose... hehe...

Just found out last night that the WUSA is terminating. That kinda bums me out cuz even though I'm far from getting there, at least i had something, some sort of goal to work for. I guess we'll see what happens.

alright, well, that's enough for now. i hope you all are doing well. i really miss all of you, the young'ens at school and the older people, me included, friends and family... i apologize for being bad about kit... summer was pretty filled with craziness and having a very slow computer using a modem and phone line to connect to the internet, just made for a poor situation... anyways, hope all is well!! have a great day!

oh finals... lots of memories.

it's been awhile since i wrote.. you know the deal...finals... so i'm sitting here in the 3rd floor lerner computer lab, munching on carrots and a snack bag of cheetos.. yeah, you know, those little bags mom and dad used to pop in your lunch baggy...finished my last final.. and now trying to write this 20 page paper for my seminar class.. and progress is being made very slowly.. hehe.. i'm coming to the realization that it's all coming to an end... so after 5-6 consecutive days of 2-4 hours of sleep every night 2x a year, it's finally coming to an end. this is it for me, well, at least for undergrad... as much as it sucks when you're actually going through it, i think i'm going to miss stayign up all night, constantly snacking in desperation to keep the body awake...

well, it's been fun studying, sleeping in lerner these past 4 years... lots of memories here.. hehe..

aight.. sheesh.. gotta get this paper done. good luck all!

umm... not so sure about philly

yo man, i don't want to live in philly... check out the stats!

violent crimes (murder, rape, robbery, assault) - NYC: 977.8; Philly: 1571.6
property crimes (burglary, larceny, auto-theft) -NYC: 2744.8; Philly: 5180

what the heck man! no one told me about this! and i thought nyc was bad....

missing china

i really miss my buddies from china and the country itself, so well, hope you don't mind as a reminisce a bit this week on my xanga...

welcome to my favorite restaurant in China... and in the US too.. apple pies in asia, oh, and in puerto rico, are soo much better than ours, yummy!

meet my friend sylvia...can you guess which one she is? she's my buddy from vegas... yeah, vegas.. people actually live there... from ciee china program... good luck girly!

...i'll have to repost these pics...

yummy food...

i hung out with my mommy and her friends in flushing today. yo.. they have some goood food in flushing mall.. really good fruit smoothies.. or whatever it was i ordered.. i wanted a simple mango smoothy, with fresh mangos.. but of course, i stupidly decided to initiate the ordering process in chinese.. so i say..yeah, i want a mang guo (mango) flavored one (pointing at the picture).. and then she says some stuff really fast in chinese or hong kongese or something. she was obviously asking me a question, so i'm like.. duh.. uhh.. so i look at the menu on the wall, and i start feeling really stupid, cuz i don't know what the heck she wants, and i can't read any of it... hahaha.. except for this one that says (bing sha).. so i got that .. and whatever, in the end it was really goood.. also in flushing, there's this great place, on that street that ten ren is on, that has really awesome shaved ice stuff.. woh.. really, really good..

i think flushign will be my new place to study.. i actually got a lot of reading done hopping from teahouse to cafe while i was waiting for my mom...

have a great Easter sunday y'all!

true love

YAY!! if you think i'm happy... i wonder what heaven's like right now!!! probably a huge party up there for our new sister!!! yay!!

the point that chris white made about the presence of a God.. if you believe there's something out there.. some superior being or force that created this earth and the complexities of human beings, then you had better do some searching.. find out who or what this God or whatever is... you can't keep on sitting around waiting because the truth of the matter is, you never know when your life, or this world, will end. personally, i think it'd be really sad to be living for nothing.. there has to be a purpose why i'm on this earth, and the first thing i would want to know, before stressing about my papers and studying, is who or what i'm living for... i don't konw.. at least that's how i feel.

it makes me sad knowing that some of my friends and family don't yet know the truth i hold... and i want so desperately for them to know and believe the living truth, but yet often i find myself too worried about the small things... like how my friend will react, or what they'll think of me..., and so end up either sharing a diluted version of my walk with JC, or not sharing anything at all...

actually, i find it interesting that it's often the christians who are afraid of speaking the direct simple message of JC... instead, we work around speaking the truth with tangential arguments and comments, waiting for that one right moment when you will confront your friend with the truth... (i don't think that made any sense.. whatevers)... but what defines the "right" moment? does that "right" moment ever come?? if we keep on living like that, we're not going to be doign what God's called us to do. we need to be bold... step out of our comfort zones...

i dont' want to wait any longer... i want my friends to know JC on a real level, not just a holiday/Sunday Christian kinda deal... i mean, what if something did happen... what if, God forbid, their life was taken unexpectedly... how horrible would it be to know that i would never ever see them again... i would feel so guilty... i love seeing and being with my friends and family on earth now.. i'm sure it'll be 20 million times better in heaven, where there aren't all these horrible worldly sufferings goign on...

Jesus died for me today... Good Friday.. he died an extremely painful death for me and for you... he was a good, innocent, and pure person, and yet he had his hands and feet nailed to a cross, and left to hang and die there... and he did this for me and you.. he did it so we could be washed free of our sins, and so that we could live forever with Him and God in beautiful heaven... if only we accept him...
now that's love.

you can either accept it, or not.... but then, what are you living for? if you believe there's some greater power out there, then please, find out who or what it is... don't wait until it's too late, and feel free to chat with me about it.. alright.. i'm off to Good Friday service.. laters.

creating man and woman

sheesh.. i keep on leaving my keys in my room.. i must really be getting old...

up all night working on a paper about saddam hussein. any questions about him while he's still fresh in my head?

Man says to God: "God, why did you make woman so beautiful?"
God says: "So you would love her."
But God," the man says, "why did you make her so dumb?"
God says: "So she would love you."

Jesus Week 2003!

Jesus Week 2003!!! Woohoo!!! Praise night was awesome tonight. it really let me put things back in perspective. Yeah, i have this annoying paper to write, but there's no point in "blahing" over it... there are so many opps this week to you know... this is the week Jesus was crucified. for me to sit here and let my work overwhelm my walk with big daddy and worse yet, on such an important week as this.. is really, really quite a disappointment on my part...

yeah, i'm gonna do my work and do it well... but i'm gonna try not to glut over it... focus on JC first, and then everything else will be put in its place, not the other way around.

tomorrow night (Tuesday night): "Christianity and the War in Iraq: Two Perspectives," 8 pm, law school, jerome greene hall, room 102.

man, and these t-shirts... cool.. but way too much selection.. i have it strategically planned out which shirt to where what day based on certain classes... but dude, these shirts add up $$$, plus.. i don't really need that many blue tshirts... so what IS the word?? i don't get it... guess we'll find out on thursday night.

a future in law enforcement?

had to go home this thursday and ran into coach dre (princeton hs's track coach) at ruby tuesday's! craziness!! I used to run into him outside of school all the time. stopped by the hs on friday morning and met up with the athletic dept there.. haha.. i'm such a loser.. anyways, had a good time catching up with salazar, boys soc coach and wrestling coach...

so salazar can picture me working in law enforcement.. or the fbi or something... he said that i can be really nice, but i also have an edge that well.. basically, i guess he's seen the meanness come out in soc games back in the day.. it would be fun working for the fbi.. haha..

comments?? so should i do business or law enforcement?

no more sprint! can you hear me?

soc...reassurances really are not always all that comforting/encouraging when the person who's trying to reassure thinks he understands but really doesn't...

i have tai duo crap to do... argh...

new cell... if i know you and you want the number, please email me. no more sprint!! yay!

have a good weekend! finally... warmth... spring...

losing it

aiya... i totally lost my cool with my coach in the middle of my game yesterday. i got so angry and frustrated with soccer, my coach, and myself that the idea of quitting soccer actually entered my mind as i was on the field playing a match. after the game a couple of my teamates and i were complaining about the game, our team, the coach, etc... and of course i vented my frustrations as well, placing more blame on other factors, other people for how i felt. ugh... please forgive me for that. let's face it, i was angry and frustrated with myself for not making the saves and for losing my cool and letting my emotions takeover my heart and mind.

God wants me out there for a reason, but how the heck am i going to exude His love and kindness when i'm all screwed up inside, self-absorbed in my selfish thoughts, frustrations, and anger.

amazing how such a tiny event can consume so much of my thought and feelings. yeah, you could say it's just soccer, it's just a game... but, I've gotta make the most for God of every opportunity I get. He's the one who's given me the opportunities and abilities, and he's the one who I've chosen to live for.

is it worth the time and effort to keep on training? i know i'm far from reaching my childhood goals and dreams, but what about God's plan for me? why does He keep putting little forward steps to encourage my dreams? well anyways, it's not up to me, so all i can do is keep praying and seeking his will, and trying my hardest in all i do. when life meets its obstacles, you can either be crushed by them, or press on with the determination JC would have to overcome them. i choose the latter. i gotta refocus/recenter my heart back on God, and let Him lead me, let him control my emotions and words.

the fertility bunny - the easter story

last friday night, we had an international dinner and Easter presentation for the international students in our conversation groups. twas lots of fun, especially because i got to play the role of the goddess of fertility in a lovely skit about easter. once i get a videoclip of it, i'll consider posting it... you will never ever look at the easter bunny or the easter egg the same way again... at least i've been totally changed.

one more thing... why does every foreigner think i'm korean or japanese? at the international dinner and in china... people would start talking about me being a korean as if i didn't understand them! i am american and chinese... oh, and partially italian... thanks to my dad Bosco. :)

snowing in april

april 1st.. and it's freakin snowing!!! craziness.. maybe i can still get a couple of runs over at mountain creek...skiing or boarding or something...

the gk coach i want to work with... he's awesome.. i worked with him at a camp a bunch of years back and he's the gk coach for the ny/nj metrostars... called me yesterday, but sprint sucks!!! we kept on getting disconnected and i couldn't call through and all that fun stuff.. argh.. oh well, i guess it's not in my hands.. if the big guy wants it to happen, then things will work out i guess.. i need to learn to have patience...

there goes my gaa...

what the heck! it was so warm yesterday, and today it was freezing!!! even some snowflakes this evening...

soccer game was bad. we got beat pretty bad.. quite bad... oh well, there goes my goals against average...